Posted in Letters Unsent

To that girl who’s got no boundaries

You know who you are.

Before I start this probably bitchy post, I just want you to know that I am so tempted to write your name here. But I will not do that. I will choose to protect your privacy. Something that you didn’t do. I will not do that because I have boundaries. Something that you don’t have.

There was a reason why that email was only sent out to you seniors at work. I have no idea why you must be included in the email thread when clearly, you have no bearing on the work that I have to endorse. The only benefit you can have from knowing is so you can blab it out to everyone who knows me, which you did.

Who gave you the right to do such thing, by the way? Tell me, in what part of my resignation did it become your story to start telling people about it? Did I ask you to do so? Did I give you the consent? What the hell where you thinking?

This happened to your fellow senior at work, if you still remember. You should, since it only happened a month ago. She was told off by your boss for not knowing how to keep confidentiality. I remember the exact words were: “I sent that to you because you are LEADERS and part of being one is knowing how to keep confidentiality”. Do you realize now where you’re totally off the line? She’s got a point there, dude. At least, that incident was purely accidental. Was yours an accident, too?

I understand that it is in your nature to talk. But for once, can’t you just talk about your life and not someone else’s?

I hope that moving forward, you’ll learn how to practice confidentiality and professionalism. No, that’s my professional counter-ego talking. What I really want to say is, you should learn how to mind your own f***ing business.

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Posted in Letters Unsent

Not a goodbye letter

Dear Juan de la Cruz,

By the time you read this, I would’ve probably vacated my seat, my things gone, my desk all clean and empty. You’ll probably wonder why I left or why I didn’t say goodbye. Here’s why:

I know this scenario all too well. I’ve been here before. As soon as I handed in that letter, I began telling people that I already did. It was the biggest mistake I’ve ever done. People began asking questions, even people I’m not really close to. They wondered where I’ll go to next, where I am headed, or whatever it is that I plan to do with my life. I answered each one of their questions. It was tiring having to repeat the same line over and over again and to different people every time. During my probably, seventh repetition of my life goals (or lack thereof), I realized that people didn’t really care what I plan to do with my life. They just wanted something to talk about. Some were just keeping tabs of who already left or at least planning to. I should’ve told only those people who really mattered to me — people that I’m sure I will be missed.

I am not saying that you don’t matter. You do. You really do. As cliche as it may sound but it’s not you, it’s just really me. I don’t want to go through the sad farewells again. Believe it or not, there were a lot of tears shed, a lot of I will miss yous uttered, and a lot of “Let’s keep in touch” promises were executed for each single soul I got to talk to that day. I never kept those promises. I never “kept in touch” with them. You see now, Juan de la Cruz, I no longer want to make promises I can’t keep. Nor do I want to create a memory of us bidding farewell in the hopes of seeing each other again in the unknowable future. No, that’s not what I want. I want us to be normal because we will see each other again. Let’s make time to see each other again. There’s no room for a goodbye because we can always meet up for a drink or two, or go out to a nice dinner to catch up. I hope you’ll like that idea, because I sure as hell would sign up if you’re game.

I’m sorry for not telling you that I am leaving. I didn’t tell anyone for the reasons stated above. Please don’t take it personally. I have nothing against you. In fact, if only I could take you with me, I would. That’s how much you mean to me.

My number hasn’t changed. You can still text me or call me whenever you have a new story to tell about that guy you’ve been eyeing on for months or whenever you wanted to rant about your boss who turned into a bitchy monster again. I promise, I will respond. And if I don’t, I probably just went to the bathroom or in a meeting or talking to a work mate. But don’t worry, once I see your name in my mobile screen, I will surely get back to you.

So give me a call sometime, invite me out to dinner, movies or wherever. I will too. Let’s catch up because I’d still like to hear your stories.

Let’s not bid farewell. No matter how beautiful they say farewells are sometimes. This letter isn’t a goodbye, Juan de la Cruz. I am writing to you to say until we meet each other again, live happily just like how I’ve always known you. Continue to inspire lives like how you inpired mine.

Cheers, amigo!

Always,
T

Posted in Nothingness

Balemtayms

I never liked Valentine’s Day. It’s not because I’m bitter or single, I just don’t like the idea of being extra sweet to that special someone because well, you’re supposed to. 

Aren’t you guys supposed to be celebrating your love every day? Aren’t you guys supposed to make your partner extra special every day? Aren’t you guys supposed to make them feel that they are loved every day? 

Yes, flowers are cute and chocolates are sweet. But personally, I prefer those sweet little effort from someone to make me smile. I prefer those random cute handwritten notes (no matter how short). I prefer spontaneous movie dates, cooked breakfasts, brunch on weekends, dinners, and long bus rides. 

Kung bigas pa siguro yan, or libreng pagkain, or libreng pamasahe… yun. Ganyan na mga gusto ko. Yung siguradong makakatipid ako. 😀 

Happy Balemtayms, everyone! 🙂 

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My gaaahhd…

Nagkamali ata ako. Tama ba ‘tong pinili ko? Masyado yata akong nag-“grab the next best thing.” 

Pero hindi din naman. Kasi pinag-isipan ko naman siya. Okay naman talaga. Meron lang talagang Queen Bee na di naman deserving. Lakas lang mangbully eh mas madami nga pwede silipin sa hindi niya pagsunod sa policies. Naglitanya pa siya, for once daw sumunod naman kami sa policies. Hala… Right back at you, man. 

My gaaaahhd…